A Dream that will Never Come True

.... Walk me down the aisle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy don't cry ....

Its a stanza from the song Butterfly Kisses.

I always dream of my dad walking me down the aisle on that special day, but i know, it wouldnt happen. Ever. Reality bites and its hurting me.

Im missing my dad. So Much. And yes, i admit, i'm a daddy's girl;

Daddy take me with you
I promise I'll be good
Daddy, this is next time
And momma said I could

Sittin' in the front seat ridin' down town
An icecream cone I'd rap him around
My little finger
Tighter than my baby could
You can make a tear go a long long way
When you're daddy's little girl

Well he tightened my bike chain from 7 to 13
Taught me to drive when I was a wild thing
Reached and he prayed while I made some mistakes
That I wouldn't have made if I'd have done it his way

Now he hugs me when he sees me
We talk about the past
He tries to give me money
And I try and give it back

He's a book of advice
More than I need
The look in his eyes is saying to me
Let me help you all I can
While I'm still in this world
What will you do when you're daddy's gone
And you're daddy's little girl

I know my dad always wanted the best for me, and right now, I can still remember the look in his eyes when I graduated in college. I remember how proud he was with me and my other siblings. I can remember the pain in his eyes whenever Im loosing path.

And What'll I do when my daddy's gone?

I cried. I cried too much and took me years before I accepted the fact that Daddy wont be there anymore...

I Love You Papa.