Tired; Bored; Hatred

I dont know what happened to me. I lost the enthusiasm to go to work everyday. I lost the the energy in doing the daily tasks assigned to me. Its like everytime that i came in the office, i wanted to go home as soon as possible. I'm having a hard time dragging myself to work each and every working day. (yes, mel i lack the passion to go to work)

I feel like I'm a monster with a big heavy body with a big big chain ball on my left foot and I have to drag myself. I have to carry my big heavy body and the heavy chain ball on my way to the office that turns to a beautiful princess everytime the shift ended.

I dont know what happened. I lost the energy to go to work everyday. Maybe, i just grew tired of what is happening on the floor. I grew tired of nonlogical process. I grew tired of lies and hullaballoos that the management is telling everyone. I grew tired of working for a company who doesnt even care for their employees. A company who avoids confrontation. A company who cant explain the need of a sudden change. A company who expects their employees to be dumbed -- they want employees that dont think and just simply follow; like a shadow that would imitate everything that the man is doing. A company with too much politics in it.

This company started good because people are happy. Because they listen but now? Those people who used to listen tries to avoid you. Maybe thats how the business works. Maybe we are really failing. But why not go to the root cause of the problem instead of covering it up?

Well, enough... I dont want to rant about how bad I feel about the company cause I know people will read this and might react as well.

One Thing that I kept in mind, all these years: I have two choices: To leave or To Stay and right now, i know I'm about to leave because i dont want to lose my principle. I tried hard to swallow and closed my eyes to everything that is against my principle... but i cant stand it anymore.

For those people who has power: Learn to LISTEN to your subordinates; hear them out loud, they wont complain if they're satisfied or at least compromise with them so that both parties would benefit.

Listening is different from Hearing... and please have a process! A standard one. This is the company that i've worked with that has an organizational chart but the job description of each officer coincides or is either doing more or less than what is expected from them.

A friend once told me, a company that doesnt have a definite job decription means they are paid enough...
(so true :( ).

I'll just discuss more tonight...